Getting back on the horse

It has been awhile since I wrote.  I was so discouraged last time and so stopped.  I didn't eat any differently, just felt embarrassed that I do not lose weight like others.  I had a nice chat with my beautiful daughter who inspires me and she has always encouraged me about my weight.  She has been following Wheat Belly since the first of the year, having been inspired by me and my interest and results with BFC.  So it is always fun to hear what she is eating and how she just hops right back onto the WB when she wanders off.

But I felt like I had been off blogging and just stopped feeling that I had anything positive to say.  Well, I am still following BFC, but can't get myself to use MFP.  I have entered food into it to get the numbers so I know what I have left but I just don't have the discipline to track every thing I put in my mouth.  I would rather not snack, unless cucumbers or 10-12 walnuts, and not have to enter everything.  

The last couple of days, I have taken pictures of some meals, which my DH thinks is the dumbest thing ever. But, I kind of like it.  I love seeing other peoples food and it gives me ideas.

I was so darn proud of myself with this breakfast.  Zucchini, bacon, and eggs.  I even had some left over I ate the next morning.

My best go to meal is a grilled hamburger.  I added blue cheese and we had a tomato, mozzarella salad that I put on lettuce so I WOULD EAT MORE VEGGIES!

So I am back blogging.  I am finding I no longer tempted by lunches out and I love my cobb salad with dressing on the side.  So I'm focusing on the good and keeping myself on the straight and narrow.  

Disappointed but not totally discouraged

I finally weighed in yesterday after following BFC for over a week.  Woo Hoo down, 0.4 lbs.  Really??? This morning I was up a pound.  I know that this will take longer for me as I am older but criminey, this long?  I had hoped for at least a pound.  I know I will not drop like others who lose a pound a day, or 2-4 per week, but I know that I did this faithfully last fall and for 5 weeks stayed within a pound.  BTW, I also stay at this weight when I eat a bag of potato chips every day.

Someone has suggest dairying for MFP every day and I really thought I was being careful enough, but I think I will try that going forward to see if it makes a difference.  The only thing, besides the crab sandwich and chowder Friday, I can think of I did out of line, was Sunday night I made a mixture of hamburger, mushrooms, sour cream and cauliflower and poured it over zucchini noodles.  A rendition of a family recipe called Sour Cream noodles.  I had 2 helpings and ate until I felt very full.  I know that is a mistake and regretted it all evening.  I am eating vegetables at almost every meal and no second portions for me.  When I see what Rosalie eats, I wonder if I am eating enough in the mornings.  That is hard for me.  I'm learning to eat salad bar with lettuce, celery, mushrooms, turkey, small amount of blue cheese dressing for lunch from Whole Foods.

I am enjoying my job more and more.  But I am sad to hear how my previous job is treating all my co-workers.  I find I cannot talk to them too much as I revert back to the bad feelings and stress I had before I left.  I am always surprised how such a negative environment can physically effect so many people.  I have been given a gift with this new job and the time I have to work from home this summer.  I do not want to take that for granted.  When I review how the past 2 years have impacted me, I am less worried about my weight than the stress and fear from my past job........so disappointed but in the bigger scheme of things, not totally disappointed.

Back in the Routine

Friday afternoon we took off in the motorhome for the beach.  It is only an hour and a half away so it's easy. Bodega Bay has a great harbor and we go often.  After we got set up, we headed out for a ride and arrived at our favorite place.  Spud Point Crab company.  The good news is that I split the world's best crab sandwich and the award winning clam chowder.  In my past life, I would have eaten the entire sandwich on the french roll and the whole container of chowder.  So I am choosing to look positively at the choices instead of whining about the fact I had white bread and flour in the chowder.  Being in my motorhome makes me so happy.  I think it's because it's like a little cocoon and I love meeting the nice people who RV as well.

The rest of the weekend, I ate according to BFC.  Sat breakfast was at another favorite spot.  I had the spinach, crab omelet.  I left the potatoes and toast on the place.  Whew, that was hard.  Lunch was crab cakes(yes I know there is filler) and green salad.  Dinner was BLT, with Avarado flax bread, that I think Amber (meandjorge.com) rates as reasonable.  Sunday, I just had coffee with heavy cream and we were home in time to make another BLT for lunch.  Snack was celery with cream cheese.  Dinner was roasted cauliflower and BBQ tri tip.

Breakfast today was scrambled eggs with cream cheese and left over cauliflower.  Also 2 pieces of bacon.  I am really taking to heart what Dawn said about veggies.  I think of her every time I go to eat something, forcing myself to add veggies.  I'm hoping it will soon become routine.

I did buy the24/7 Diner recipe book.  It was home when I got her yesterday.  I went through and marked some recipes to try.  I did notice they are not all BFC compliant but I can pick around that.

Well back to work.

No Changes So Far

Yesterday, I met my boss for some side by side computer time.  Since the building is still being redone, we meet in any room with outside light that isn't covered in dust or so distracting due to noise.  This room will ultimately be my assistant's office so in a month or two the dry wall should be painted, carpet on the floor and window dressings will improve this.  He/she will also have a real desk and chair.  The progress is nice to see each week and soon I will be back in a people filled environment.  But for now...

Dinner last night was as I mentioned.  Leftover chicken with celery, mushrooms, spinach, some sour cream with the chicken.  Actually pretty tasty.  My DH thought it was better than the night of original chicken.  I just wish I liked chicken and thought it was satisfying.  I eat because it's lower fat and so many people love it and serve it.  I prefer red meat.

This morning I made myself a green smoothie but didn't do it quite right and so basically drank thick ground spinach.  I actually didn't mind it but would have preferred what I have made in past.  I just seem to forget how I did things so will need to write them down.  For lunch I had 4 sections of akMak crackers for 1 carb, with cheese, and two bites of left over hamburger.  The akMak was the only wheat carbs I've had for a couple of days.    I also had seen a recipe for grain free cereal at satisfyingeats.blogspot.com.  I doubled the recipe and so have alot of it.  I should have used more sweetener and it was a little bland so would add salt next time but it is full of nuts and seeds and crunchy.  I hope to have it for dinner tonight with a little more stevia and unsweetened almond milk.

I am not losing any weight, in fact went up .5 lb today.  I know several months ago when I was really good, I never really lost more than 5 lbs in several months.  I think my age effects it and I am not being very careful with portion control. I want very much to lose weight.  As you may have noticed, I am not posting my weight because if I can't get it to drop, I don't want that number out there.

I am trying to look for and make new menu items rather than just eat the basics.  All of you other bloggers invent recipes.  That is so impressive.  I tend to be a throw together type and am very poor at following recipes.  I always tweak something which usually works out well, but recently not so much.  I'm hoping that by trying new recipes, it shakes my metabolism up a bit.  I'm also pushing veggies which is hard for me.  Maybe mentally I need to reset for success.  And remind myself it's a lifestyle AGAIN, not a diet.

Staying Faithful

I need to start with dinner last night.  I was so excited to try the cauliflower cheese patties that I had seen on Pinterest but changed out flax meal for the panko crumbs.  Also DH insisted I use the Manchego cheese rather than cheddar.  Well!  They were awful.  I will try to make them again and use the panko for holding power. Does anyone know what carb free flour works in the same way?  I would like to try meat loaf but need something to bind.   I like all the other fun things to do with cauliflower but this was awful.  Fortunately, I had made hamburger patties with cheese and bacon mixed in and DH grilled them.  They were terrific.

I made my zucchini with eggs and little cream cheese mixed in for breakfast.  I love the addition of cream cheese to scrambled eggs.  That breakfast is so fast and tasty and I feel so smug eating vegetables early.  I ran to Costo for dog treats and bought a slice of pepperoni pizza.  It seems, I had read somewhere that to eat the top off pizza was OK.  I sure hope so because it was delicious.  I could have had another slice (with the bottom removed of course).  I also had some nuts and string cheese in my purse so that helped me out.

For dinner I will be using left over chicken with spinach, mushrooms and may put over cauliflower.  I'll use some sour cream and cheese to see if I can make a sauce.

Signing off